The road taken...

There is a road that reminds me of you
A buzzing place teeming with throngs of people
The road were we found each other in the middle of the crowd

There is a road that takes me back in time
The bright blinding lights that would gradually give way to the certainty of silhouettes
When I saw myself a little more clearly

We thought that road held promises of spring flowers
But reached a little too late...
Our wheels crunched through dried autumn leaves

That road that seemed endless, a new route to existence
Yet ended abruptly as we turned the corner
No detour in sight

Today I went down that old familiar road
A road that stands for me and you
A road that we have traveled together many a time

Today I passed the known sights, the familiar lights, the predictable turns
And realized they have all become strangers.
And I've lost my way.

The Butterfly Effect

What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger they say.

I beg to differ.

When, over time, you come out of a fucked-up situation, are you really stronger? Or is it just a euphemism for saying you're now even more of a cynical, hardened bitch than before?

After all, it's not like you come out unscathed. What about the burn marks - which then harden into unseen scabs? What about those occasional jabs of pain? Is that a tougher, more resilient you? Or someone with a more tightly walled-up heart?

Do you really learn your lessons? Or do you then make a slightly different mistake at another time, another place.

They say don't wallow in self-pity. But no-one tells you anything about self-doubt. They say no one can disrespect you if you don't give them the opportunity. They never warn you that trusting someone is opportunity enough.

They tell you that time heals all wounds...they never tell you that the ripple effect of that one memory in time has the power to shape so many of your moments to come.

You come out of a fucked-up situation thinking you're wiser and smarter. You can be that...if you agree to be infinitely more foolish...time and again...

Fool's Paradise

I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel―Maya Angelou

Life comes a full circle

When you break your own rules
When you let down your guard
When you open yourself up
When you act like a fool
When you speak out your mind and heart
When you give in to momentary madness
When you let yourself care
When you dare to cross the circumference
Just once...just a little...

Life comes a full circle...

And you end up where you started
Face-to-face with a whole new side of you
All your lessons unlearnt
Resigned to start the journey once more...all over again...
In an endless rhythm that's gone out of tune

I beg you… to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language.

Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now.

Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.

- Rainer Maria Rilke